Why I Quit Tumblr…

I’m 100% sure nobody on here knows who I am and where I’m from.

I mean, you guys will know about my name, my age, which city/province I live in, and how I look like from my bio but you guys don’t know more than that. There are personal things I’m not able to share on my blog because WordPress restricts the idea of random posting. By random posting, I mean thoughtless text posts on what I’m thinking at the moment or just things that are not related to my normal blogging routines.

And I get that it’s my blog and I can do what I want but somehow it feels so different from Tumblr.

If you have a Tumblr, you might agree with me. Tumblr tends to not have much of a structure. There is more content and it’s easier to share such content. With WordPress, posts are limited to the views of your followers and sometimes, the odd viewers searching the tags. But with Tumblr, content is constantly reblogged(shared) across blogs on dashboards. It’s quick. It’s easy. It’s just one click.

You might be wondering now why this post if I liked Tumblr so much. Why did I quit? What was so awful that you decided that enough was enough and you needed to leave?

It’s nothing dramatic.

I was a part of a fandom for a well known celebrity. Accumulating over 50,000 followers before Tumblr deleted my account on the terms of copyright violations (I uploaded music), I restarted my blog and gained 15,000 followers before deleting it on my terms. It started with me not logging on anymore. I was more involved with life, happier to set myself apart from the internet, and appreciating things around me more than zeroing my attention on someone who was somewhere out there. What I also suspect that contributed to my ultimate decision to delete my work was a fallen out with a friend. We met there. Things were said. Conversation muted. Pain happened. And it seemed we both parted with words hanging between us.

But enough of the sad friendship story. I wanted to talk about other reasons why I left. Since I was part of a fandom and I had a significant following, I felt that I was limited in terms of what I could blog. I would lose a tonne of followers if I blogged about someone else or I’ll gain a bunch and lose them later on when I zeroed back on my focus on someone else. In terms of a marketing perspective, my target audience was fairly limited. And that stunted my creativity and made me sad to log on.

Another reason why I left was simply because the people in the fandom. Nobody really attacked me but I felt that there were people who didn’t particularly liked me or they felt indifferent towards me. Most of the times, I found myself being really ignored. I stopped blogging for a bit and where I thought people would care as to why my disappearance occurred, I was easily replaced with some up-and-coming blogger. That was really the harsh reality of it all. The truth was if you didn’t provide content on a regular basis and grow a connection with people you follow, they will forget you. Or in other harsher terms, you’re not that special despite having the amount of followers you have. You can make a few significant friends that will remember your birthday or your favourite colour of nail polish on your nails but just like your facebook friends, not everyone really knows or cares about you.

I probably deleted my blog 4 months now. Or maybe 5. But since I deleted my blog, I found myself in a tug-and-pull relationship between joining back on the Tumblr train or just writing it off for good. On one hand, I miss meeting new friends on the internet, the interaction between other bloggers, and blogging randomly about my life. On the other hand, building the follower base I was before is hard work. It takes a tremendous amount of time and dedication and I really need to focus on myself at the moment.

And the biggest question might be…well, what do I blog about? I don’t particularly like anyone as much as I liked the main celebrity I had a crush on.

I guess I’m standing in front of two paths, not knowing where to go.

Or maybe I’m just making a huge deal out of this. It’s Tumblr for God sake’s. It’s not like i’m trying to decide whether or not I’m moving across the world to some small country in Europe because the love of my life is there.

 

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7 thoughts on “Why I Quit Tumblr…

  1. You could use tumblr for make up or some other hobby? I mean, you don’t have to blog about a specific fandom? I don’t know much about tumblr. I checked it out once, but I’m not sure I could get the hang of it or enjoy it.

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  2. I could relate to many points you mentioned. Although I never had the amount of followers you had, I did feel the pressure of always providing content. In a way, it became some kind of a competition, who could find rare pictures, who had the best edits, etc but at the end of the day most people didn’t realize when you disappeared. I had one or two friends I still talked to from my tumblr days. I didn’t quite remember why I left. I think I sort of lose interest in the artist, then I started posted less and one day I just stopped posting altogether.

    I have to admit that those were fun times though. Logging in to see your post has been reblogged and liked certainly has its appeal. And the amount of fangirling I had on tumblr is just insane. Hahaha.
    Typing this comment actually makes me miss tumblr. lol.

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  3. I think tumblr is easier for me. I don’t make big deal of it. I just reblog photos I like. My tumblr is not about any celebrity or someone alse. I don’t feel presure to post regulate or smth like that. For me tumblr means pictures, cool quotes and nice outfits…I have like 20 followers and I don’t need more people to follow me 🙂 Even if they do, it has nothing to do with me. I just reblog someone alse’s photos.

    Like I said here https://lllrainbowlllblog.wordpress.com/2016/02/12/1984/ ..Let people inspire you.

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  4. I’m a sporadic tumblr user. I have no real theme to it and I basically just reblog or post things that I find interesting. I can definitely understand the fandom community aspect of it. I normally browse through fandoms of shows/books that I like and I’ve found that in most of them there are a lot of drama and I just don’t have the time or patience to want to engage in that negativity. Basically if I’m in the mood to hunt down pretty pictures, fascinating stories or theories things then I’ll hop on tumblr every once in a while haha.

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  5. I read your post and just totally related to the ‘sad friendship’ bit. I’m one of those lurker people who don’t even bother with my follower count on Tumblr. My account existed since 2012 I think, and it gained most of its 500 or so followers because of my participation in skme fandom ship war back in 2014. I merely got back to my account when I started writing fanfiction in 2017. Some of my readers asked for my tumblr and from then on we chatted there. And then I met another writer whom I feel like I really clicked with. We’ve been talking for a while as we write our respective stories when she said that she had to leave due to health issues. Then before 2017 ends, she rings me on Tumblr and hints about her fall out with a friend. We kind of hit it off from there. But when everything was said and done, she just made up with her ex-friend and left me in the dirt. Ugh. I swear I was just filled with emotional crap. She and her friend kind of left the writing sites. But they keep popping up together in tumblr and it just causes me pain to see them there because I feel like a lot had been left unsaid. (They blocked me, and at that point I just thought that I need to have some pride and just live my life.)

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    1. Hey there! I wrote this post so long ago and I always wondered why people went back to it but i see that it’s very relatable. I feel like after the emotional journey of having a friendship end, a part of me has either grown numb, moved on, or died inside. The pain of losing friends does leave as time moves on and you start making new friends. They of course can’t replace the one friend you lost but you’ll be able to have more time for new and cool people now. So it’s not all losses. I’m sorry they ultimately decide to cut you off completely. I hated that feeling when it happened to me as well.

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